Thursday, 28 September 2017

Life is a maze

Hi so this week I just wanted to share something I wrote with you all. It is a song I wrote when I was in a bad place to explain how I felt and sometimes admittedly how I still feel. It's maybe how others feel too. I would love to hear from you if you can relate to this song!!

The lyrics mean something to me and really speak out how I felt and how hard it was for me. I have never done this before.

I guess a message for this song is things get hard and seem impossible but they aren't and if you let others in they will help make it easier. Ok I am going to just jump into the song lyrics now.

Life is a maze


Verse 1
Life, life picks me up,
Life, life drops me down,
Life throws my emotions around,
How, how should I feel, 
How, how should I know,
When, ooooh,

When

Chorus
I'm in a maze with no map,
An impossible trap a rollercoster and there's no going back,
Won't someone please shine a light on my path,
Because I can't do this on my own.

Verse 2
You, you only live once,
Life, life is a gift,
I know these things are true,
But none of it helps,
Pick me up when I'm down,
And my whole world is spinning around,

coz

Chorus

Bridge
Oh no no no, not on my own,
no I can't do this on my own.

Verse 3
Friend, lend me a hand,
Reach, reach out to me,
Sometimes your all I need,
You, pick me up when I'm down,
Stop, stop my world spinning round,
And help keep my feet on the ground,

when

Chorus
I'm in a maze with no map,
an impossible trap,
A rollercoster and there's no turning back,
You always shine a light on my path,
So I'm not doing this on my own,

Oh no no no, not on my own,
No I won't do this on my own. 

Monday, 21 August 2017

Crazy Little Me!!!

Ok so I have just recently, over the last few months, been on my own personal (fast and crazy) rollercoaster ride...in my head. Some people may have already guessed and maybe by my previous post 'Life as a Coin' (which I wrote while I was high) yep I have Bipolar Disorder: Rapid Cycling (Just like Stephen Fry: that's how cool I am lol.) But I promise I am not high or low anymore: right now you are just talking to just Cerys... hi!!! 

I want to write this to help others, as Bipolar although said to be rare, is quite common and there are even plenty more celebrities to name. Also this could help people with depression and my low mood could be described as a depressive episode!! My highs on the other hand could be described as manic but they are still depression just Manic Depession so they still (although much, much better and more fun than the low) aren't much fun. When high I can often cry for Britain over nothing, which feels horrible: like I am a little kid again and I struggle to breath, the cry is that bad!! 

Ok so I don't really know what I actually want to write inn this post. I am trying to think what is most important to tell you about My Bipolar (My By.) I guess I am just aiming for spreading awareness of (what I would call) this Horrible Disorder. 

I guess what I never realised is I could not have picked a better name for my blog back in 2014, when I was perfectly well. As recently and when My By first popped up inside me when I was 17 (2009) I have been literally been Fighting 4 Fitness... against myself really and it has never been easy!! 

I think I want to leave this post short and sweet, hopefully leave you wanting more!! :) 

Please comment if their is anything you would like to know about Bipolar in general or My By. To be honest I am more of an 'expert' on My By than Bipolar as everyone's Bipolar is so, so different from what I have seen which is something I would like to go into in more detail in a future post!! But I would be more than happy to try and answer any questions!!

Also comment to share your stories or experiences of Bipolar or even Depression I would be interested to know more.